People,

Do you have a shitty job? If the answer is yes, doesn't it suck?

Here's my problem; I have no way of emotionally disconnecting myself from the things I'm doing. So, even though my shitty job is very shitty, I still spend an exorbitant amount of time trying to do it conscientiously. And this would be ok if I got any sort of positive reinforcement from my boss. But I don't. At all. In fact, the only time he talks to me is when he wants to bitch, which is frequently. And so I find myself in a situation where I am always nervous that I'm going to be yelled at while also going over everything I'm doing 18 times to make sure it's right. Damn.

Sometimes, when I'm copying something a second time to make it dark enough for the boss's eyes, or correcting his woefully bad grammar in a letter, or walking a mile to a local bookstore to get the book "he just needs", or researching the 19th century volumes of old chemistry journals (whose dust I'm horribly allergic to) I get to wondering what the point of all this is. And of course the point is that the band makes this all sort of tolerable I guess. But it's hard.

Oops, just got bitched out. Gotta go.

Anybody have any good lottery number ideas?